I'm so confused.

I'm so confused..

I thought I gave up on marriage last term.

I thought I gave it up to God.

And ... why am I back here, confused once again??

One night, Alice and I prayed for our future husbands.

And since that night, marriage has been coming up repeatedly in everything- random Bible passages, random blogs, random yahoo news articles, random slideshows at church.

What is going on?

God. Why is my life being flooded w/ marriage?

Is this You?

or Is this Satan trying to tempt me?

This song came up, and I would like this to be my wedding song.

That through it all, I will be able to glorify and praise God.

Its always been a mystery to me,
How two hearts can come together,
And love can last forever.
But now that I have found you I believe,
That a miracle has come when God sends the perfect one.
So gone are all my questions about why,
And i've never been so sure of anything in my life

~chorus~

Oh I wonder what God was thinking,when he created you.
I wonder if He knew everything I would need,
Because he made all my dreams come true.
When God made you, He must have been thinking about me.

(Girls)

Ooo ooo,I promise that wherever you may go, wherever life may lead you,
With all my heart I'll be there too.
And from this moment on I want you to know,
I'll let nothing come between us, and I will love the ones you love.
(guy):So gone are all my questions about why (girl echoes):about why

Duet:Oh I wonder what God was thinking when he created you,
I wonder if He knew everythin I would need,
Because He made all my dreams come true.
When God made you He must've been thinking about me.

Bridge

He made the sun He made the moon,
To harmonize a perfect tune,
One can't do without the other they just have to be together.
And that is how I know its true,
Your for me and i'm for you and my world
Just cant be right without you in my life

Chorus

(guy) He must have heard every prayer I've been praying (girl echo)
I've been praying (both)He must've knew everything I would need

When God made you, He must've been thinking about me.

I really hope I can get married.

It's honestly one of my biggest dreams....

And ... to be frank. I'm scared to give it up to God, in fear that He'll call me to celibacy.

I really want kids..

But..... I must remember. God's not that kind of a being.

He wants the best for me.

So I will have to trust Him to know what's best.

Lord.

Help me to trust you.