Not Ready

I've been having a lot of dreams about being unready.

A couple nights ago, I was in Mucic's class again.

It was the final.

The final where you choose a quote and you explain how it connects to your life.

Except this time, it was choose a type of paper and explain how it connects to your life.

I had not prepared for this final.

And I ended up trying to choose between paper towel and lined paper.

I was going up thinking of some nonsense to say up there when I woke up.

Another night.

I was going to NIKO and I forgot to go shopping.

I forgot a sleeping bag and my backpack.

I was making a bunch of calls when I found them last minute.

Yep.

This is me right now.

Everything is not prepared.

I am getting everything last minute.

I am preparing last minute.

In other words, I am BS-ing through my life right now.

Am I ready for His return?

Is my lantern full with oil???

God.

Help me to be ready.

Help me to be ready for death any day.