Oh dear.

I am leaving for Korea in approximately 3 days.

I will have no time to blog by that time, so I will blog now.

I have learned so much in this past week alone. It's amazing, yet at the same time... not all good.

First and foremost.

I realized this week that there is so much of me that I need to fix.

Maybe because they're not the typical family problem or substance abuse, I didn't recognize them, but they're undoubtedly there.

I wish I could be more open to addressing them, but I am embarrassed about them.

That is a flaw within itself.

I have to learn to be open and comfortable with others. Ugh.

I thought that my major flaws had been fixed, but I don't think so anymore.

Sigh. There's so much work to be done. Where do I begin?

I can't even use "I'm human" anymore.

Jesus said "Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect." -Matthew 6:48

Be. Not just "attempt". but Be.

I'm sure I will never reach perfection, but He probably wants me to try. Right?

I love this song and how they sing it.

I refuse to show Destiny Child's version, because of the Illuminati. Scary stuff.

Anyways.

I am headed off to Korea.

I realize that I am still basically the same Ashley from last year, except a tad more calloused.

It's terrible.

I have become so used to sin, that now I think it's acceptable for others to do it.

I have convinced myself that I am being "understanding", when all I really am doing is being compromising.

Yes. Maybe I am turning radically, but isn't that the point of following Jesus?

Which brings me to my first thing.

I am still Ashley.

Still the self-centered Ashley from junior year.

I should be completely transformed.

Everything I see should be completely different, yet the trees still have the same green hue.

Thus, I will be taking Korea not as just a vacation, but as a makeover session.

I want to come back changed, for the better of course.

I want to breathe in His presence every moment of the day.

Hopefully, the isolation from friends and family will do just that for me.

Sorry. I am bouncing from topic to topic.

I wish money wasn't a big deal.

I wish I never had to worry about money.

But then again, I don't have to worry about health, which sometimes, money can't buy.

Today's not a light topic.

Thanks for sticking with me folks.

See you from halfway across the world!

Please pray that North Korea doesn't bomb Seoul while I am there.

I'm serious.

It's a big worry.

God.

Thank you.

Thank you.

Thank you.